Finding My Way Home
Occasionally we all get a little lost. I’ve been lost for the past few months. I’ve been overwhelmed and for some reason I felt the need to reinvent myself, my look, my stories….
Photo by Lola May
I ‘ve felt like I was in a bit of a holding pattern, in which I’d been told we were being watched, in which people told me they had big expectations for me and some started telling me what they thought I should stand for, how they thought I should look. Generally, I’ve always gone with my gut and listened to my heart, but after a bad break up swept the carpet out from under my feet, I was left feeling totally lost. Not really sure who I was or who I wanted to be. Horrified at myself for having let myself fall into what clearly was an unhealthy and emotionally abusive relationship. How could I let myself do that again? Was there something wrong with me? Was there something I needed to fix about myself? Should I really trust myself and my own instincts? And admittedly, my writing poised a huge factor in our break up, so I started making it less of my personal story and more about the events whirling around me. And with that I started getting a little fluffy in my writing and occasionally a little tartish in my attire. In my mind, my writing has become a little flat and artificial and I’ve felt more than a little flat and artificial.
I get asked all the time, how I am going to make money with my writing? Where is my funding model? Well, I started writing for fun, to process my thoughts, and to grow as a person. When I moved it online, it was for inspiration and drive to finish my first novel. It was not to become a marketing tool or an advertisement, and while no one is paying me to write about this product or that, I do fear that that is what I am becoming.
Feeling especially like this with the Olympics, as Brie and Mario and I decided to let as many people as possible know about the fun and free of the Olympics. So we’ve been trying to collect as much content as possible and firing it up as quickly as possible. I’ve gotten tired and the story has really suffered. Has it been a complete waste? No. It has been a good training ground for Mario and an extremely good reminder to Brie and I on what it is that we are doing. So I think we are going to regroup tonight on our 3 am team building trip to Grouse Mountain and remind ourselves of what this is really about. Having some fun and telling the story of the people we meet that help us to process our own stories in this wacky world. While yes, we may still mention the odd event at the Olympics, I don’t that our guide will be quite so full. Now the Olympic language guide on the other hand ….
And a huge thank you to my wonderful family and friends that are not afraid to tell me when they think I’ve lost my path (or, in the case of my family, are concerned that I have started to have dressing like a tramp).
Kisses,
Emme xoxo
One Hell of a Great Party at Saxony House
Apologies about my singing in this vid from last night, but I couldn’t help myself. I was having such a great time!
Here’s the usual schedule at Saxony House:
- 12 – 6 pm Saxon Food & the Olympics on the Tele
- 6 pm – 11 pm Saxon Grub (kitchen closes at 10 pm), Live Folk & Rock Band & Saxon Films
- 11 pm – 2 am Saxon DJ Club Dance Party
Robson Live!!!!
Absolutely loving the Cultural Olympiad!!!
Did you know that you can take in live music, like Yuca, down at Robson Square? And skate on an outdoor rink at the same time? Get out there and enjoy yourself Vancouver! We deserve it!
Steveston’s Little Secret
Yes, it’s true, Steveston is harboring a little secret. Nestled away in this sleepy town is none other them the Home of Filipino Pride for the 2010 Winter Games, the 2010 Filipino Bungalow!!!
Come visit and cheer on the Pride of the Philippines (and Poland and the USA) at the 2010 Winter Games, JR Celski!
Let’s go JR, let’s go! JR, JR, JR!
Kisses Emme xoxo
PS Sweet and soft kisses for Steven’s brilliance on the camera and for putting up with me in stress mode.
Whooping it up for Literacy
In case you hadn’t heard, I am throwing a little bash all in the name of literacy! Specifically for The International Dyslexia Association and to launch our Reading is Sexy Campaign. Cause, as I just finished telling Daniel Reynish, I find nothing sexier than a man (or woman, for that matter) curled up with a good book (preferably in front of a roaring fire).
So to read between the lines, we are promoting literacy and raising funds for The International Dyslexia Association, and hosting a little party to celebrate that and the launch of 2010 Reading is Sexy Calendar.
Party Details
Cost: Free
Local: Gudrun Wine & Cheese Bistro (150-3500 Moncton Street, Steveston, BC)
Date: Thursday December 3, 2009
Time: 7 pm until late
Festivities:
- general revelry and enjoying of Gudrun Goodies (I will buy a few plates for the room, but bring some money with you to enjoy more Gudrun Goodies and some of the yummy wines and beers)
- readings from a few of our authors (Ian Ferguson, Mark Leiren-Young, Richard Yearwood, Lorraine Murphy, Rayne … to name a few … I may even read something from my yet to be finished novel)
- calendar signings by the ‘models’ on hand (really, just because I think this would be bloody hilarious…. I’m thinking of signing in lipstick)
- auctioning of some of Robert Shaer’s photos from the shoot for charity
- …and I plan on dancing ….even if nobody else joins me
Why Gudrun? Because Patrick is in the calendar, I adore him and it’s my secret writing hideaway.
One Added Perk: If you so choose (although certainly not required), you can do a bit of your Holiday Shopping at the event as we will have the 2010 Reading is Sexy Calenders (with $4 of sales from each calendar sold at the event going to The International Association of Dyslexia) and books and CDs of some of our authors on hand.
Hope to see you there!
Kisses,
Emme xoxo
PS So I can give Patrick an idea of numbers, can you please RSVP on facebook or in the comments below. Thank you, all you sexy things!